These days I find myself moody and depressed more often than I have ever been. I think my thesis writing is really getting into my mind and screwing me up badly. Fortunately I have Renee who keeps me in check all the time, though I have to admit that there were times I was not nice to her.
I realized that I have not been able to appreciate little things from here and there for a while. I have not expressed my appreciation enough to Renee who has been patient with me. Ever since my younger cousin died unexpectedly almost two months ago, I have been fighting so much to get out of depression. After all, he is in a better place, far from here. Unfortunately, it is hard for me to accept certain things and live life without asking 'why'. It really sucks to struggle in one of the most crucial times. But who doesn't struggle, anyway? Life is full of challenges, and that's what makes one's life interesting.
Hopefully things will turn out to be better when I'm done with school. I know there will be new challenges ahead of me, but at least I don't have to deal with school any more.
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I'm so sorry to hear about your difficult times. I recently read a book called "90 Minutes in Heaven." It really touched me.
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